Day 11 of this vegetable fast and I think the revelations are as powerful as the aromas.

Fastiing is like standing in front of those wacky carnival mirrors...you know, those kind that severely distort you. exagerating your faults hilariously....well, thats fasting. It exagerates all those faulty characteristics and says ok...lets get busy....and God begins to cut away at you.

You'ld think after serving Him all these years I'd have it down ...HA!.well I do on the outside...but the inside..FORGET IT! I'm just muck. Not sand or a dirt..just sticky muck. .its that mixture of good water, good dirt, and a little vegetation. ( Alone they are wonderful...but the wrong combination....is just muck)

I've realized that in my insecurity and fear of leadership positions I've become critical of my leaders. Simply put, God has given me leadership gifts and until I step up to the plate and start exercizing those gifts Im going to become bitter at those who have....so I'm committed to going and entering whatever door God opens and praying for those who have.

thanks Lord for this revelation.
Heart surgery is tough.